To
me, high school isn’t as brilliant as movies and books make it seem. I never
really got into the dances, sporting events, and assemblies. But as graduation
gets closer and closer, I actually am sad that I really never was involved.
High school has been one crazy, amazing, chaotic journey. I have lost and
gained many friends, but one person that truly has impacted my four years of
high school is my mother’s boyfriend.
My
father left when I was two years old. I never really got the chance to know him
personally but from what my mother tells me I am a lot like him. Sometimes I
wish he would just be there for my siblings and me. Or, maybe even come around
once in awhile. But all my life, I wandered how it was to grow up with a
father. When I was younger I prayed everyday my father would come see me, but
eventually I gave up.
A
couple of years later, God answered my prayers. He did it unexpectedly. He didn’t bring me my father, but he blessed
my family and I with an incredible man. My mother never dated anyone after my
father left. She thought my siblings and I were enough, and she claimed she was
happy, but I knew deep down inside she wanted love. She devoted all her time to
us, so it was nearly impossible for her to find someone, but she did.
I
remember when I first met him. It was at a basketball game my freshman year. It
took me awhile to get used to him being around. It definitely was weird at
first. I was used to my brother being the man of the house. But, overall, it
was an easy transition because it was easy getting use to my mother being
happy. My mother definitely deserves to be happy.
He
has helped me a lot through high school. He would pick me up late at night when
I came back from football games, buy food for me, and give me advice about
college and boys. My siblings and I enjoy him being around. He puts up with
four girls in one house, and I definitely can respect him for that. I know it's
not easy, and he doesn’t really have to be here, but he chooses to. He has
always been there for me. He knows how to talk to me about certain subjects a
father should talk to their daughter about. He respects my mother and gives her
everything, and I could not ask for any better fatherly figure. I cannot
imagine high school without him.
I
have never called anyone ‘dad,’ and honestly I do not think I could ever call
anyone that, but when I’m at the store with him and my mom, and they refer to
them as my parents and him as my dad, I smile and my heart brightens because I
now know I have someone to look up to like a father. He definitely has been a
huge impact throughout my high schools, and I cannot thank God enough for
putting him in my life.
I can absolutely relate to this Courtney. My biological father left when i was 6. My mom didn't date until i was 8 and she found her man. I loved my biological father it took me a while to accept that he wasn't going to be part of my life again. It took me a while but now I'm glad to call him my dad. :) I know what you mean and calling him dad and him being a dad to you are two different things. :) I love how open you have been this year Courtney :) Thank you so much you have given me strength.
ReplyDeleteCourtney, I definitely understand where you are coming from. I never completely had a father figure in my life until this year. I always want my mother to be happy and she also claims she is but I want her to feel love again. I am afraid to leave her after high school, and it would be nice to for someone to be here with her but she is strong. I am glad your family has that fatherly figure now and your mom is happy. I accept that my father did not want to be in my life but as I meet with him now I am happy he is trying. Thanks for sharing your story (:
ReplyDeleteHas anyone told you that you are amazing?! I think that most all of our class has enjoyed your thoughts more than anyone else. Sometimes I don’t know how to reply to some of the topics you bring up but that doesn’t make it any less important. I just want to let you know that I appreciate what you have told us. It inspires us to act the same way and share what we have felt to the world. I wish I was better at that. I feel it is important to share what we have learned even though there are the little monsters in people that might not like it. It is worth it in our eyes. I hope you never lose these blogs and have them printed off somewhere because they are a treasure. Thank you for sharing so much with us.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jacob. I love reading your posts! I understand where you are coming from. My real mom left when I was five, and I just hoped and prayed for another mom. My real mom was still involved in my life, just 8 hours away. But when I was 9 I got a mom and I love her very much! I am Glad that You got a father figure in your life and that it makes your life happier. Thanks for sharing
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