High school for me isn’t the best
experience nor is it the worst, but one thing that really changed that all
around for me was being the football manager. Those boys have so much heart and
determination. I am very glad I let my barrier down and got the guts to be the
manager. Every practice and game, I learned a little more about the boys. They
became my brothers. They never disrespected my sister and I. They said please
and thank you. I do not think any of the boys know nor have the slightest idea
that they have taught me so much. They have taught me to be myself, and generally
just enjoy the little things in life.
One
game I will never forget was the Winslow game. I swear that moment changed my
life. They were down, and some of them were mad. I understand why. They worked
so hard at practice. They never gave up. One of the boys was standing there and
just staring at the field, and I asked if he wanted water. He never responded,
so just when I was about to walk away, he said, “I’m freakin’ tired of losing.”
Of course, he didn’t say “freakin,” and he said other things to me, but I
understood. Tears rolled down his face, and I didn’t want to cry, so I walked
away. I didn’t know what to say. There were so many emotions flying around, and
I was in the middle of it. I tried to stay out of everyone’s way and be the
best help I could be. After the game, the boy apologized. I still didn’t know
what to say. I told my mom everything that happened. She told me, “Those boys
have the biggest hearts ever. They were losing, and they never gave up.”That
was exactly true.
The
Monday we came back to school, I heard some person say, “The boys lost. Of course,
they never win. They suck.” That comment just really made me mad. They didn’t
know how hard they worked at practice. They didn’t really know anything about
those boys. I didn’t say anything, but later a boy said to me, “The football
team got beat so bad by Winslow.” Of course, I had to say something I cared
about those boys so much, so I said, “You don’t know how hard they work, so as
long as you aren’t trying out there, don’t say anything.” He is a friend of
mine, and he didn’t say anything back. Later that evening I went to practice and
the boys were back to themselves, hilarious and weird.
I’ll always remember the most humble player
saying to the team, “Don’t give up, guys.” Then he tapped his brother on the
shoulder. I’ll always remember freezing, and trying to keep warm. I’ll always
remember tripping over the water bottles when Daniel intercepted ball, and
there were so many people at the game. I’ll always remember these were the
greatest moments in high school. I’ll always remember senior night crying, and one
of the boys said to me, “Thanks for everything.”
They
have taught me to be me again. I will never regret being the football manager. So
take chances, and go out of your comfort zone and do something you’ve always
wanted to do.
Courtney, it is amazing how sometimes the simplest things in life turn out to be the most meaningful to us! Your story of stepping outside of your comfort zone is so inspiring, being that this is an issue that many of us face. The fear of not knowing is most times the greatest fear of all. That is awesome how you stood up for your team! It is true that most people don’t know what goes on “behind the scenes” of things. It’s pretty easy to be quick to judge something based on what we see from the outside. But, as you have made clear, it is important to try to understand all of the hard work and efforts that go on in order to create what we see. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness Courtney you always have the best blogs! I love the stories that you teach, they are some of the life lessons that we all need to take into our lives. I think the world is stuck in a rut of a comfort zones. We all just plan on doing the safe and easy thing. But it isn't necessarily the thing that is going to make us the happiest. I am so glad that you are in my class this year because you always have the absolute most touching ideas on life.
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